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I’m the One Who Needs Forgiven

Good morning, Father! I am so grateful that this has become a regular part of my schedule. I would ask that You would help me to never take it for granted but that I will always cherish our time together. And I think that’s what is foundational is that I cherish You! I have incalculable reasons why I should cherish You, I just need help realizing them. As Your Word directs, may I love You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength!

Colossians 3:13 (<<click here)

Forgiveness – Lord, over my lifetime we have worked through so many incidents where I have needed to forgive. Most I can’t even recall but a few of them were huge! Being asked to step down from an associate pastor’ position with no reason given, being unable to refinance our home because of an employer’s comments, being encouraged to leave the nest of security in another associate pastor’s position to became a Senior pastor when I felt I wasn’t ready. In those situations the hurt, the confusion, the anger – they consumed my every thought it seems. In the heat of the moment, I was unable – make that unwilling to forgive. Together, You helping me, I have been able to forgive. Thank You, Lord that I no longer have to carry that baggage.

And looking back, I am the better for the experiences I have had. Sometimes things just don’t make sense – we just have to move on. Sometimes people are just apathetic to our situations, but we just must press on towards our goal – and sometimes we are the problem. Many times people love us and want what is best for us but we are blinded by fear and uncertainty. When the dust finally clears we find we are the ones who need forgiven.

Lord, thank You for taking the hard times, the extremely difficult times of my life and using them to make me stronger, to make me more sensitive to the needs and predicaments of others, to make me more and more appreciative of what You have done for me.

June 22nd, Mon, 5:58 am

Zombies, Weeds and Illness

Zombie

Father, thinking over yesterday, I want to thank You for being with me throughout the day. Holy Spirit I know Your presence is with me 24/7, but there were several instances yesterday where I felt You were guiding and directing me. My response to one particular incident set the tone for the day, and because I prayed and followed You, You were glorified. I in my selfishness could have hindered Your kingdom, but because I was obedient, Your kingdom was lifted up. Thank You for working in me and through me. Thank you for patiently working with me, for chiseling away at my hard heart, for molding me more and more into Your likeness.

Colossians 3:5-11 (<<click here)

Lord, reading this passage brings so many visual images to mind – “zombies”, gardening and disease (illness) to name a few.

I’m really not a fan of anything “zombie”, but putting “to death” “sinful, earthly…lurking” things bring them to mind. We are called to “strip off [our] old sinful nature and all its wicked deeds”, but the undead regularly come back and want to eat my brain. I know this is a weird train of thought, Lord, but without You working in my life “sexual immorality, impurity, lust,…evil desires…greed…anger, rage, malicious behavior and dirty language“ don’t want to stay dead. Those things, and more, rear their ugly heads and want to destroy me!

Vegetable gardens come to mind too. We clear off a plot and work up the soil. We rid the area of rocks and debris then plant seeds in anticipation of a good harvest. But inevitably weeds show up and if we are not diligent they can overtake the good we have sewn. Evil sprouts up everywhere. We must regularly go to the Master Gardener, for help – to rid ourselves of the “weeds”, to learn how to keep disease from destroying the harvest, to discover how best to ward off critters that would eliminate the fruit of our labors.

Sometimes things can pop up that look “good” and our curiosity allows them to continue growing, but they take our time and energy from the important tasks at hand and we end up with problems. Lord, help me to fastidiously maintain my plot and to come to You at every opportunity for guidance.

Disease and illness are things we are always on guard against. Some things are easy to avoid for we know they are not good for us, but sometimes we like things that are detrimental to our health and well-being. We may love peanut butter, but if it causes an allergic reaction it could kill us.

Sometimes we come in contact with things that have never bothered us before, but You call us to let them go. Help us to be obedient or our “spiritual” health will suffer. They may even be things that we didn’t realize were hurting us, but we will need to be wary and avoid them.

Lord, You want us to keep ourselves pure and free from sin. Help me to listen to You and obey You even when it doesn’t make sense to me. Help me to continue to rid myself of my old sinful nature and to wrap myself up in my “new nature and be renewed as [I] learn to know [my] creator and become like [You].”

June 18th, Thurs, 6:21 am

Overcomer

Thank You, Father, for Your presence. I cherish these times of special interaction but I am also grateful that You are with me 24/7. I would ask that I would have an ongoing realization of that fact throughout each and every day. Please be a guiding force in every moment of my life.

Philippians 4:10-23 (<< click here)

“…be content with whatever I have” v11b

“…I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” v13

“…God…will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” v19

Contentment…no limits to what we can do through Christ with the limitless resources found only in Him!

Ok, Lord, first things first…I’m sorry about my attitudes reactions in certain situations when in the van with my family…please forgive me. I sure need to tap in to this “contentment” thing! I realize that I’m a work in progress but this area of my life needs to be addressed.

Why does this part of my life result in anger so often? I know part of it is being called out for my anger is like throwing fuel on the fire – not just a chunk of wood but gasoline! It probably has to do with control and insecurity but whatever it’s rooted in – it needs to stop!

I am richly blessed in so many areas of my life – abundantly so! Why should one really insignificant area of my life (interacting with other vehicles on the road) rob me of the contentment I should feel? Just because others don’t measure up to my standards on the highway should not cause me to lose it! And when my sin is pointed out I shouldn’t blow up!

OK, Lord, this is yet another problem pointing in my life that, obviously, I cannot deal with on my own. I need You to give me the strength to overcome it and conquer it! There is no limit to what I can accomplish through You. I would humbly ask that out of Your “glorious riches” You would grant me extra doses of patience and peace…the “passes understanding” kind! Help me to see it, my struggle – my sin, for what it is and to shut it down by giving it over to You.

Christ in my life, You “must increase, but I must decrease” John 3:30 NASB That’s the only solution!

June 4th, Thurs, 7:30 am

Pride

I’m so glad we have this time together. Help me to hear clearly and to act with conviction. Please continue to work with me throughout the day, teaching directing, correcting, so I will become more and more like you.

Ephesians 2:11-18

Pride…a struggle for many…and I am no exception. But it sure takes many forms. Feeling like someone reprimands me for something others do all the time and my defenses go up.  My wife says something that I take as criticism even though she may not have meant it that way and I get angry. Behind the wheel I suffer from it regularly, others driving slowly (or more slowly than I’d prefer), bad parking and pulling in front of me…all get a reaction and not a pleasant one.

And the list could go on… Lord, I am sunk on this one. Help me to think of You and when I do fail, to reflect on my problem and to begin responding in ways that would be more pleasing to you. I will trust in You to be able to be an overcomer of pride.

April 23rd, Thurs, 6:46am