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How You Are with Me

Father, words are just inadequate to express my thoughts toward You. In my life, which is up and down and here and there, You are constant and consistent. You are solid. You cannot be shaken. You are ever on even keel. These are traits of You overall but, at least for me, this is how You are with me.

Lord, I have done nothing to be treated this way. So often I feel like the “difficult” child in Karen’s first grade class. There’s a way I am supposed to be, a way I’m supposed to act but I am not, I don’t. I run around when I’m to be sitting . I talk when silence is required. I break my crayons. I doodle on my papers. I belch at the most inappropriate times. I run instead of walk. So often I am an absolute mess!

But You? Hebrews 13:8 assures me that You are “the same yesterday today, and forever.” And that is truly how You are overall but, just as truly, that is how You are with me.

You are patient and kind. You are not irritable, and You keep no record of being wronged. You never give up on me, never lose faith in me. You are always hopeful, and You endure through every circumstance. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7) You are love and You love me…

Thank You, Lord, for being who You are. Thank You for loving me where I am. And think You for loving me enough to help me be all I can be in You. This peanut butter and jelly faced, runny nosed kid can and will be so much more. You love me and that makes all the difference.

Jan 17th, Tues, 6:18 am

Best Foot Forward

Father, last night was a little rough but I am ready for this day to begin. I give it to You. Not knowing exactly what it will entail, there is no better place to lay it than in Your mighty hands. Fill me and use me. May I be a blessing to those whom I would come in contact. Amen.

A beautiful word picture from The Valley of Vision before I move forward this morning,

“Give me a broken heart that yet carries home the water of grace.”

1 Peter 2:18-20 (<<click here)

O, Lord, how many times have I complained about my job? Yeah, I’ve lost count… This is definitely a very difficult time of year. Earlier (and later) hours. Boatloads of freight. Thousands of customers – some cheerful, some not so much. Leadership run ragged…run through the mill… dead men (and women) walking. Many try (some succeed) in putting their best foot forward…but it’s tough, to say the least.

Lord, today fill me with You. May I be loving. May I show true compassion. Bless me with an attitude of long-suffering patience, just as You have with me. If my day is extra-bumpy, may I take it all in stride. May I encourage and not discourage May I support and not tear down. Use me this day, Lord, as an ambassador to Your kingdom. Amen.

Dec 12TH, Mon, 5:12 am

Keep On, Keeping On!

Some days, Father, it is difficult to sit and write – and this is one of them. My mind is distracted, going a multitude of directions. I’m a little off-kilter. I ask for Your forgiveness and that You help me to focus on the important not the trivial.

Titus 1:1-4 (<<click here)

I am still struggling and time is ticking away. I suppose I could compare myself to the island of Crete where Titus was sent to minister. The Good News had touched many lives but there was much to be done – to take numerous individuals all going different directions in life and attempting to bring them together as one body of believers would be the challenge.

Established mindsets are difficult to overcome. Even some who seemed solid in their determination to follow Christ would have issues with things that had long ago been laid to rest. As are we, the church is a living breathing organism. And as in any and every setting, the church continues to grow and decline, and mature and fall back. It is an ongoing endeavor both for the church and the individual to maintain their relationship with You, Lord, through all the many ups and downs. We kid ourselves if we think it doesn’t happen to us or that it only happens to us. All of us must continue to strive to keep our relationship with You alive and well. Jesus, You are there for us, You don’t give up on us, You forgive us when we fall but We are the ones who must decide to move forward – to not give up, but to advance.

Lord, help me to keep in line with You – to not throw in the towel but to keep on, keeping on!

Jan 11th, Mon, 6:34 am

I Have Issues!

Father, as this day begins, I want to consciously hand it over to You. You have truly – miraculously – changed many things in me for the better. But we both know that You are not finished with me. Father, please help me be the person You want me to be. My brain cannot process all the why’s in regards to my anger issues but Father, You and I know they need to be dealt with! I am incapable of dealing with them but, Father, You are not! Help me address them and help me to love others as You do. Amen.

1 Timothy 1:15-17 (<<click here)

Lord, it was difficult writing out today’s prayer. None of us like to announce, “I have issues!” But as Paul proclaims in v.15, “This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it: ‘Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners’- and I am the worst of them all.” And I like Paul, can say, “But God had mercy on me…” v.16a

I am, by no means, perfect. I truly strive to be obedient to Your call on my life as a follower of You, Lord. But it is no secret that I fail. I say things I shouldn’t say – hurtful things. I do things I shouldn’t do – my anger spews forth and I don’t stop it. I think things unbecoming a child of God – perverse things, hateful things. “But God had mercy on me so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life.” v.16

“Great patience…” O, Lord, where would I be without Your “great patience.” Once again I join Paul in proclaiming “All honor and glory to God forever and ever!… Amen.” v.17

Without You I would surely be lost. Only because of You am I found. Yes, I most assuredly have a multitude of things to work on but, thanks be to God, I’m not on my own! Lord, You are with me, You love me more than I will ever truly comprehend on this side of eternity and You, the Creator of all that is, You want me to succeed! I will be victorious!…but only because of You. Amen!

August 25th, Tue, 5:57 am

Poke the Bear?

Good morning, Father. Thank You for answered prayers; for getting us here safely. I am so grateful for opportunities to be with family and to meet new people. Please bless this day as we gather to worship You. Be with Eric as he stands before the churches You have given me. Bless him; bless them. May we all be challenged and fed.

2 Thessalonians 1:1-10 (<< click here)

As I begin this epistle, Lord, I see another aspect of Paul’s personality. It’s easy to think of Paul as a “tough- love” kind of guy. He was a great leader and by no means did he shy away from dealing with difficult issues or situations. You chose him because of those traits buy You also chose him because he so personified Your love – he fleshed it out. He loved the church in Thessalonica but he had to deal with some thorny issues. His love didn’t make him hesitant to correct them and their deviation from the acceptable didn’t make him hesitant to love them. Getting to the point- he was You to them!

Lord, I would ask that You would enable me to be that kind of leader – for that matter, that those traits would emanate from me as a follower as well. It’s easy to want to avoid difficult situations (and people) and sometimes “poking the bear” isn’t the best course of action but sometimes in order to move forward things have to be addressed. Help me to know the difference. And regardless of what the response should be help me to respond in Your love. May it be genuine, not self-seeking, or self-preserving. May it be sacrificial if need be. Help me to be a reflection of You.

August 9th, Sun, 6:49 am – TX time 🙂