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I’m the One Who Needs Forgiven

Good morning, Father! I am so grateful that this has become a regular part of my schedule. I would ask that You would help me to never take it for granted but that I will always cherish our time together. And I think that’s what is foundational is that I cherish You! I have incalculable reasons why I should cherish You, I just need help realizing them. As Your Word directs, may I love You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength!

Colossians 3:13 (<<click here)

Forgiveness – Lord, over my lifetime we have worked through so many incidents where I have needed to forgive. Most I can’t even recall but a few of them were huge! Being asked to step down from an associate pastor’ position with no reason given, being unable to refinance our home because of an employer’s comments, being encouraged to leave the nest of security in another associate pastor’s position to became a Senior pastor when I felt I wasn’t ready. In those situations the hurt, the confusion, the anger – they consumed my every thought it seems. In the heat of the moment, I was unable – make that unwilling to forgive. Together, You helping me, I have been able to forgive. Thank You, Lord, that I no longer have to carry that baggage.

And looking back, I am the better for the experiences I have had. Sometimes things just don’t make sense – we just have to move on. Sometimes people are just apathetic to our situations, but we just must press on towards our goal – and sometimes we are the problem. Many times people love us and want what is best for us but we are blinded by fear and uncertainty. When the dust finally clears we find we are the ones who need to be forgiven.

Lord, thank You for taking the hard times, the extremely difficult times of my life and using them to make me stronger, to make me more sensitive to the needs and predicaments of others, to make me more and more appreciative of what You have done for me.

June 22nd, 2015, Mon, 5:58 am

Holding On

Father, this morning my thoughts are full of family and loved ones who are going through transitions with ailing and/or aging loved ones. Once strong and independent and full of life, they now must depend upon others for their well-being. Uncertainty, loneliness, pain, anxiety, fear, embarrassment are all too familiar terms. Tears may be shed, frustrations are high and patience may be thin on all fronts.

In so many ways our hands are tied we can’t just “fix” it. We must trod this pathway of life, Lord, but may we be encouraged knowing that we do not walk it alone. Many are blessed to have family and friends to help along the way. But most importantly is that You are with us regardless of the circumstances in which we find ourselves.

Lord, help us to not fall into the pit of despair. We may feel overwhelmed by it all crashing down up us but in these difficult times may we not turn from You but may we lean into You – holding on for dear life – for You are life. (John 14:6)

We may struggle…even to the point of death but help us cling to the truth. Lord, may we live in Your word as recorded by Paul in Romans 8:35-39.

35Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36(As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) 37No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

38And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

When all is said and done, we will be with You – not just for a while, but for eternity.

“Look, God’s home is now among his people! He will live with them, and they will be his people. God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” Revelation 21:3-4

Amen and amen!

Feb 8th, Wed, 6:38 am

Cloud Cover

Father, thank You for the wake-up call and for helping me to get up, too. It is early but there is already much on my mind. I pray for a discerning spirit, Father. Help me to see through all the cloud cover to the truth. Give me Your eyes with which to see. May Your love and mercy and compassion be mine.

Lord, it has been 15 minutes and I have not written a thing. I am torn. I am uncertain of which way I should go. Part of me wants to stay with the norm. It is easier. My mind and heart see the truth, it is right there. The other part of me is struggling with the cloud cover. What is true? What is false? Fear, anger, trust, genuineness, deceit, blindness, love, hate, reality all factor in. This is not just a hypothetical situation where theology and philosophy are hashed out. It involves real people, in real life. To some, it may be an inconvenience – a frustrating bump in the road. To others, it may be a life or death circumstance – a life changing situation in which their hands are tied.

Lord, nothing is hidden from You. The Apostle John says of You, “God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all.”1 John 1:5 You pierce through the cloud cover. You, as light, pierce the darkness. May Your light rain down. May we see reality. May we discern the truth. Guide us with Your outstretched arm.

Lord, I feel compelled to write out one verse in particular (v12) but the whole passage is applicable. (Ephesians 6:10-18)

“For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.”

That is where the battle is! May we abide by Paul’s proclamation in verse 18, Lord, as well.

“Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.”


Jan 30th, Mon, 6:09 am

Reverent Fear

Good morning, Father! I am so grateful for Your hand upon my shoulder throughout the day, yesterday. Your palpable presence was invigorating and such an encouragement! I know You are always with me, but yesterday was just extra special. Thank You!

1 Peter 1:17b (<<click here)

“… live in reverent fear of [the heavenly Father] during your time as foreigners in the land.”

Lord, as I look at this passage this morning the word “fear” sticks out. It brings to mind many possible definitions. It seems that when we see the word fear, our minds automatically home in on being afraid. Even as I ponder the many facets of it, my mind is everywhere.

First of all, Peter writesreverent fear.” My study Bible* notes emphasize its meaning as the “healthy respect…for the all- powerful God.” This is definitely a very important aspect in our relationship with God.

Over the years I’ve heard it illustrated in comparison to a “healthy respect” for fire or electricity. Both of these things can greatly enhance our lives…but we must be cautious. They are both very powerful and if they are interacted with in an improper manner, suffering can take place – even death.

God is all powerful and we must interact with Him with the utmost of respect. But we cannot be afraid of Him to the point of avoiding him or cowering in His presence. He loves us with such intensity that we can’t truly comprehend it. He desires not to harm us but for us to grow in Him and to love Him in return.

I guess the one area that we must guard against most is losing that reverent aspect of our interactions. He is our God. He is our Savior. Scripture tells us he is our friend (John 15:15, James 2:23) and we rejoice in that fact! But I don’t think we should ever consider Him as our “buddy”. That idea seems to knock the reverence right out of it.

Lord, You are many things to us. You love us beyond measure and we love You, too. But we would ask that we would hold You in his best regard. We are blessed and honored that You should call us friend. Amen

Nov 2nd, Wed, 5:51 am

Do Not Worry About Tomorrow

There are many things weighing on my mind, Father. I ould humbly ask for your wisdom and direction. There is no better source than You. Fill me with Your Spirit that I may do Your will. Amen.

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14:27

“Therefore do no worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34

So, Lord, things are entering my life that are giving me reason to fear and be troubled. None of us knows what tomorrow will bring. But as I hear it, it makes me want to circle the wagons, to bring my loved ones in and to prepare for the worst. The worst may very well come, but does being consumed with readiness on a physical front really accomplish anything? Is it unwise to not prepare?

Lord, we talk daily and I don’t think that I am avoiding truth. I just don’t feel that You are directing me to stockpile and prepare for the end. Is it coming? …yes. When? I surely have no idea whatsoever – but You do. I place my trust in You. If You called me to prepare in other ways I would but You are calling me to daily live my life out in You, through You, because of You! How does taking care of my needs, or even encouraging others to do so further Your kingdom? You are the proclaimer of peace – not fear! I choose to place myself in Your hands. I will not “worry about tomorrow” for tomorrow is in Your hands as well. Amen

Oct 18th, Tue, 6:21 am