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I’m the One Who Needs Forgiven

Good morning, Father! I am so grateful that this has become a regular part of my schedule. I would ask that You would help me to never take it for granted but that I will always cherish our time together. And I think that’s what is foundational is that I cherish You! I have incalculable reasons why I should cherish You, I just need help realizing them. As Your Word directs, may I love You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength!

Colossians 3:13 (<<click here)

Forgiveness – Lord, over my lifetime we have worked through so many incidents where I have needed to forgive. Most I can’t even recall but a few of them were huge! Being asked to step down from an associate pastor’ position with no reason given, being unable to refinance our home because of an employer’s comments, being encouraged to leave the nest of security in another associate pastor’s position to became a Senior pastor when I felt I wasn’t ready. In those situations the hurt, the confusion, the anger – they consumed my every thought it seems. In the heat of the moment, I was unable – make that unwilling to forgive. Together, You helping me, I have been able to forgive. Thank You, Lord, that I no longer have to carry that baggage.

And looking back, I am the better for the experiences I have had. Sometimes things just don’t make sense – we just have to move on. Sometimes people are just apathetic to our situations, but we just must press on towards our goal – and sometimes we are the problem. Many times people love us and want what is best for us but we are blinded by fear and uncertainty. When the dust finally clears we find we are the ones who need to be forgiven.

Lord, thank You for taking the hard times, the extremely difficult times of my life and using them to make me stronger, to make me more sensitive to the needs and predicaments of others, to make me more and more appreciative of what You have done for me.

June 22nd, 2015, Mon, 5:58 am

Victim of the Wringer

It was a bit of a rough night sleep wise, Father, but regardless You have lovingly encouraged me to come be with You. May our time together be rich and sweet. Amen.

Matthew 5:31-32 (<<click the green)

For whatever reason, we often have this faulty mindset in place that things are so different today than they have ever been. Yes, technology has advanced greatly but the core of who we are as human beings has not. Solomon said it almost 3000 years ago and it’s still true today,

“History merely repeats itself. It has all been done before. Nothing under the sun is truly new.” Ecclesiastes 1:9

When You spoke, Lord Jesus, You identified a mindset that is still as prominent today as it was then. When man and wife are united in marriage, the intent is for a lifetime commitment. But many of us have a problem with commitment. Some desire to be unfaithful. Some merely are tired of the old model and are looking for a new one. Our whole society leans that way. “Tired of your current car? Get a new one!” “Fed up with the job you have? Get a new one!” “Is your spouse not meeting your needs? Find someone who will!” “It’s not that hard just do it!”

It may be easy to do but that doesn’t mean it’s not difficult. Buying a new car frequently can cause financial difficulties but ending relationships impacts so many other people. And it’s not just a short-term inconvenience – for many, it’s a lifelong open wound.

Lord, divorce is not just some sin that You cherry-picked to rank as one of the top infractions on Your list. Sin is sin. But it is one where sometimes one party and sometimes both parties are so often completely void of love. Lord, I have friends and family both who have dealt with divorce as a part of their life history. Sometimes the division is amicable but most often someone is hurt and the other party is glad that it is so.

We are called to love as You have loved us, Lord. Right now I pray for those I know who have gone through this wringer of divorce. Though they may have suffered greatly, and some continue to do so, may they find a peace and a love in You that surpasses any they have ever known. Help me to listen and love from my end as well. Amen.

Nov13th, Mon, 6:52 am

I Am Your Child…Not a Robot

What a week it has been, Father! Thank You for Your strength, Your wisdom, and Your rest through it all. May I be used of You this day. Amen.

1 John 3:1-3 (<<click here)

“See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are!”

What a privilege to be called children of God! We are not just His creation or His servants, His followers, His robots or His puppets. We are His children and he proudly owns up to the fact that we are His children.

One of the fun banterings parents have back and forth is that when kids are well behaved they are my children and when they misbehave or are ornery they are your children. It’s all done in fun but in many situations, fun is not the intent. How many families are broken because a child or a parent has said or done something that is labeled as “unforgivable”? And there it sits. The anger or hurt or pride runs so deep and is so ingrained that attempts at reconciliation are futile.

Lord, I am so grateful that Your word does not equate You with anger or pride but it says You are love. 1 John 4:8 Love is the driving force in how You feel about us. You love us so “very much” that “[You] call us [Your] children.” Many of us diligently strive to separate ourselves from You. But regardless of destructive actions, Your mind will not be changed. The indisputable fact remains that You love us. You love us so much that You gave Your very life so that we might be saved. John 3:16

Thank You for Your love. Thank You for not letting me go…

Apr 23rd, Sun, 6:25 am

Power of Forgiveness

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A little out of the ordinary coming to sit with You mid-morning, Father, but regardless I am here and am eager to begin our time together.

James 2:12-13 (<<click here)

Lord, You led me to speak on forgiveness this past Sunday and this passage ties right in. Why do we struggle so with showing mercy to those we feel have wronged us? This mindset crosses all barriers – every human being deals with it. And we all have thoughts of retaliation.

Our world is an absolute mess. I truly believe that a majority of the world’s ills can trace their origins back to unforgiveness. We hold grudges against moms and dads and siblings and teachers and coaches and law enforcement and pastors and on and on and on! They hurt me! They neglected me! They shoved me down – then they kicked me! And it builds and builds until we can’t take it anymore. And sometimes we explode! Maybe we let loose a verbal deluge on someone close to us…or for that matter a total stranger! Road rage! Drive by shootings! Pain – hurt – revenge!! AHHH!!!

And the only thing that can stop it is loveYour love! When we begin to understand Your love for us – when it starts to sink in how much we have hurt You and that You still went to the cross to pay the price for our sin then we can begin to forgive.

Our sins against You are literally incalculable!! I can’t even begin to add up my sins for the past week; much less my lifetime and You don’t hold back Your love and forgiveness. It is freely given…and gratefully received…

So how can I do any less? All of humanity will never hurt me as much as I have hurt You…

Lord, help me to show mercy. Help me to forgive. Please, fill me with Your love. Amen.

Aug 25th, Thurs, 9:12 am

Love Your “Family”

Ugh… it has been two days too many since I have sat here in Your presence. Sleep has been too alluring and once the day begins to roll it just doesn’t stop. But Father You are faithful! Thank You for once again waking me and encouraging me to be with You this morning.

 1 Timothy 5:1-2 <<click here)

Our families play crucial roles in all our lives. And if they are to have the greatest beneficial impact then they must be families that are bent on living out Your call on their lives, Lord.

In this passage Paul calls upon Timothy to interact with people in his church as he would with his own family. Now when I think about this in my own life it is not difficult to do so. I grew up in a loving, supportive family. I still love and respect my mom and my dad and my sister. I would do anything within my power to help them and they would do the same for me. I feel the same way, as time has moved on, about my wife, my son and my niece. I have a loving and supportive family so it’s easy to parlay that wonderful blessing over to those in my churches.

But, Lord, I am well aware of the fact that not everyone shares this blessing. Sin has brought much hurt and pain into families across the globe. Many will forever carry scars of abuse for the rest of their lives, be it emotional or physical. And of course it is a multi-faceted problem involving relationships with parent to child and child to parent, husbands to wives and siblings to siblings.

Lord, a simple prayer seems too little too late to address this issue which is so deep and so wide, but I lift it up anyway. For You care about every child and man and woman who would do anything to be truly loved. I pray for them, Lord, but enable me… give me the wisdom and the power and the courage to be Your hands and feet… to love others as You have loved me… as You have inspired my family to love me and how I have loved my family. Help me, help us all, Lord to love You with “all of our heart, soul, mind and strength” and in so doing to love our neighbor (…our family) as ourselves.

Sept 18th, Fri, 6:57 am