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Swept Under the Rug

Father, I am so sorry that I allow little things to build up to the point that I am spiritually off balance and fall. I know You are there for me. Early on I listen closely and swat down even the slightest thought that would lure me from You. Then over time my swat time lags, they I don’t swat at all – my indiscretions are small and seemingly insignificant…but over time they multiply and begin to pile up. Why I don’t just stop and call for Your help to sweep them all out, I don’t know. That would make sense. I continue to sweep my random thoughts under the rug. But over time there are more and more of them and some are bigger than others. I try to ignore them but that rug starts to get lumpy – so much so that I stumble on occasion – I don’t fall mind You, I just stumble. And I continue on in my self-imposed “ignorance.” Again, why don’t I just stop and ask for Your help? It’s not difficult. I know You want me to. But I convince myself that I can handle it. I’m good. I’ve got it under control…but I don’t. And You watch as more and more gets thrown under the rug, calling for me to allow You to help me but I’m distracted – focused on all kinds of things and not the matters that really matter. And then it happens, it’s just too much, I stumble…I try to keep my balance but I fall. Maybe I don’t fall as hard as I have in the past but I still fall – flat on my face. And why? It makes no sense! It is all my fault… I have no one else to blame…

But You are still there. You have not forsaken me. You have not given up on me. I yield once again (for the gazillionth time?) to Your loving hand. You reach down and help me up. I consent to pulling back the rug and am swept clear once more.

Thank You, Lord, for Your patience. Thank You for Your unfathomable love. Where would I be without Your mercy. I fall into Your mighty arms. I pray that You will help me. I am stronger than I once was but I willingly acknowledge that I am utterly incapable of anything close to success on my own. I am dependent upon You. Help me to respond to Your guidance. Help me to yield to You. Help me to sweep things out of my life and not under the rug.

It’s not easy writing these things down, knowing someone else is going to read them. But I know that we all have things that we sweep under our own rugs – things we battle against but sometimes they pile up. Maybe its gossip, or laziness, or food or sex or backbiting or selfishness or self-loathing… the list goes on but Christ is there – more than willing and more than able to help us. All we must do is to call out and He is there. He is for me… and he is for you, too.

Nov 12th, Fri, 5:00 am

Stand Firm

Father, looking back I cannot help but note how greatly blessed I am. I see Your mighty arm guiding me, sustaining me, protecting me and sometimes plain holding me up…but You have always been with me. Thank You, Father. Then looking ahead I have the utmost of faith in that You will always be there – You are faithful and my trust is firmly placed in You – for nothing can separate me from Your love. (Romans 8:31-39)

2 Timothy 2:16-19 (<< click here)

Lord, mulling over this passage I realize that, beyond my proclamation from the pulpit, I don’t have a whole lot of opportunity to get into theological discussions. I’ve done so some with Massey and Dad… and our regular Bible study at church would apply. I truly strive to abide by the precept of avoiding “worthless, foolish talk.”

Good, solid theological discussion is important and is beneficial. I guess I struggle with processing everything quickly. In my mind I have to think things through. I am firm in my faith but to be able to articulate why I believe or to be able to immediately back up those beliefs with scripture is difficult for me. Even here at this point I am very methodical as I write.

Of course, after almost 5 months of blogging my journal entries, it is obvious that I do think, that You, Lord, have enabled me to communicate what You have laid on my heart and basically it was all theological in nature. I do proclaim Your truth every week from the pulpit and have done so for more than 13 years now. So I am not incapable by any means.

Lord, help me to stand strong for You. When I am called upon to defend my faith may I do so with confidence, and with Your help, may I do so with accuracy. Amen.

Nov 9th, Mon, 5:03 am

Unsearchable Riches

Father, the quiet of the early morning hours is my favorite time to be with You. My mind and body are fresh. My thoughts are not cluttered. A new day, a clean slate – Father I give it to You. Help me to keep You at the forefront of my mind. Use me this day as You will.

2 Timothy 2:1 (<<click here)

“…be strong through the grace that God gives you in Christ Jesus.”

My Study Bible* expounds on this verse by stating that “just as we are saved by God’s grace…we should live by it. This means trusting completely in Christ and his power, and not trying to live for Christ in our strength alone.”

Lord, as I ponder on this it affirms what You have taught me in recent months. I still have my days but no matter how strongly I feel about serving You – living for You – I am incapable of doing so with my resources. There is absolutely no wisdom in doing so! My resources are limited and in no time at all they are exhausted. But as Fanny Crosby penned,

“Oh, the unsearchable riches of Christ
            Wealth that can never be told!
            Riches exhaustless of mercy and grace,
            Precious, more precious than gold!”

Help me, Lord, to remember that I do not have to live for You with my little reserves but You want me to draw from Your unlimited unsearchable riches!

Lord, enable me to fully grasp the concept that it is not prudent to simply “refuel” when I am running low. To be victorious in my struggle to remain true to You in this life I need to maintain a direct fuel line to the reservoir of Your grace and power. Thank You, Lord for loving me. I am ultimately dependent upon You!

Nov 1st, Sun, 6:24 am

*New Living Testament Life Application Bible