Tag Archives: loss

Why Me? Will It Ever Stop?!

Father, today has been a good day. I am so grateful for everything You do for me.  Helping me to focus…especially to focus on You…helps me to keep myself on the straight and narrow, which is the only place to be. All praise to You!

Philippians 4:7 (<<click here)

To worry less – pray more! Lord, doing this will bring about a peace found only in You and as the old translation reads, it will be a “peace that passes all understanding”– from the world’s perspective, it makes no sense!

Something has been rattling around in my head for some time – as Your children, how do we respond to the absolutely horrific thing’s this life thrust upon us? Death, disease, heartache, financial woes, loss, and rejection – the list goes on and on. We cry out, “Why me!?” “Will it ever stop?!”

Now Your Word tells us in Romans 8:28 that “… in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”  So the question we deal with then is, how does all of this gel? If You love us why do we experience so much pain in life? And how does pain which is included in the “all things” of Romans 8:28 work for our good? Again going to Your Word tells us in order to stress less we must pray more and that will bring about a peace that is beyond comprehension.

First of all, You do not bring about the pain. We, the whole of humanity, have brought that upon ourselves. Eve’s yielding to sin started it and every one of us since has perpetuated that sin – our depravity knows no end. Our great propensity for wondrous creativity from being created in Your likeness has been pushed to all limits by our perversion and wickedness. We have so polluted the world with our rebellion that inevitably we encounter pain.

Secondly, because You love us so much – which is proven by the fact of how far You went to bring us back into right relationship with You – the giving of yourself to the point of a horrific death at our hands – because You love us so much You can take all that is ugly and revolting about ourselves and our lives and make it good! The impossible becomes possible!

Lord, most of us would have no problem acknowledging these two points through most of the ebb and flow of life. But when those times of pain and suffering are so intense that we feel like we are going down for the count, is the answer to worry (which seems like an awfully small word in this context) less and pray more? ‘That’s it?’ we yell? ‘With all Your power and might and “love”, that’s all You have to offer?’ And Your answer is…a resounding ‘YES!!’

We absolutely cannot wrap our minds around it, but giving ourselves over to You and praying in place of worrying brings us peace – not peace of the world which is shallow and, oh so temporary, but Your peace. Your peace is deep, and rich and most importantly – never ending!!

Miraculously, You take the absolute worst of our lives and bring the absolute best out of it! From a worldly perspective – it makes no sense at all, but Your peace is not of this world. Being Your children, whom You love, You give it to us freely and in abundance!! Lord, all the praise goes to You for this awesomely overwhelming gift!! In the midst of the hurricanes of life – You are there – solid and strong- FOR US!!

Help us, Lord, to trust in You – to throw ourselves into Your mighty arms. Give us Your peace we plea! When we do so the glory will be given to You! Others will ask how we do it and we can proclaim that it’s only because of You!! You are our only answer to everything this old world has to throw at us!  Even if death is what is thrown our way, yes, even death, You are the answer – being escorted into Your presence, what could be better?

Praise You, Lord!! Strengthen us!  Enable us!  Empower us!! Use us through all of life to hold our lights high, showing the world that there is HOPE and LIFE found only in You! AMEN!

June 2nd, Tues, 8:07 am

River of Life

Father, as I have sat here praying my heart goes out to the three ladies who are dealing with the loss of their beloved husbands within the past few days. Also, there are two who vigilantly are sitting by their spouse’s sides as they valiantly fight to overcome the after effects of strokes. Father, I place them in Your more than capable hand, touch each of them today, may they find comfort in Your loving arms. Amen.

Point of focus. That’s what You must be for us, Lord. Life is so full of things that try to overwhelm us. They seek to knock us over. We experience much over which we can despair. In the midst of it all friends and family rally round to support us – and we are so grateful they are there. But there are times when they cannot be there. The river of life continues to move along. Friends, family, and ourselves, we move on… but the pain, the loss cannot so easily be left behind.

You, Lord, are the only One who is always by our side, through the ebb and flow of the river of life, through all the ups and downs, You are right there with us.

May we see You through the struggle, through the heartache. May we fall upon You in our time of need, for You are there. Oh, Sovereign Lord, You are our refuge and strength, a very present help in time of trouble. Grant unto us Your abundant mercy. May we find comfort and healing balm in Your sustaining grace. Amen.

Apr 24th, Mon, 6:29 am

A Single Spark

Father, You are the anchor in my life. You are what keeps me grounded. Thank You for Your presence. Thank You for Your patience. Thank You for Your love that is in constant pursuit of me.

James 3:2-12 (<<click here)

Every day is stock full of choices. Some are insignificant “what kind of cereal do I want today?” “Do I pick up that unsolicited phone call or let it go to voicemail?” In the grand scheme of things they don’t have a whole lot of impact.

But, Lord, some of the choices I make today can have far-reaching effects. Today’s passage addresses the tongue and throughout this day and every day I have to decide whether I will use it for good…or for evil.

One of many things that James compares the tongue to is fire. A single spark can set a forest ablaze causing much loss and destruction. But fire in and of itself is not Inherently evil. It just needs to be controlled. It needs to be contained.

A song from my youth comes to mind. “Pass It On” by Kurt Kaiser was written in 1969 and has been sung by many young people around glowing campfires at church camps and retreats.

The first verse is…

It only takes a spark
To get a fire going
And soon all those around
Can warm up to its glowing
That’s how it is with God’s love
Once you’ve experienced it
You spread His love to everyone
You want to pass it on

Fire can be a very good thing – we just have to be in control. Lord, may Your fire fill me. May my tongue be used by You to kindle a fire that will welcome those about me to gather round to feel Your warmth and love. Help me to use my tongue for the good.

Sept 9th, Fri, 6:47 am

If Only

 

Good morning, Father. Thank you for once more having the opportunity to sit with You. May this day be Yours to use as You will – use me in whatever capacity to further Your kingdom.

Hebrews 11:29-40 (<<click here)

Lord, so many people throughout the ages have placed their faith in You and all of us, past and present, rejoice in the fact that we have done so. As today’s passage puts forth many overcame great things in their lives, finding great victory – others despite pain, suffering and loss may not have found everything we deem important in this life here but their victory was none-the-less.

Looking back over our lives it’s sometimes easy to be anxious about the “if onlies.”  If only I’d applied myself more. If only I’d said “no” to this or “yes” to that, who would I be…where would I be. But, Lord, I am so grateful that You can take whatever we have and use it. The good, the bad, the beautiful, and the heinous – everything we have done makes us who we are. We cannot undo what has been done. We can only continue to move forward.

Lord, use me in my entirety. I have not lived a perfect life. There have been many ups and downs. But, Lord, they all have contributed to make me the person that I am. Purge from me what is detrimental to my service to You. Build up what makes me stronger. All-in-all, may I be the man You want me to be – Amen!

May 22nd, Sun, 6:33 am

Mold and Shape Us

Even at this early hour, Father, many things are running through my mind – joy in seeing Your mighty hand at work in the life of a newborn recovering from life changing surgery – thinking, with a heavy heart, of events which transpired at work yesterday and what it means for parties involved – a gamut of emotions but though I feel both joy and sorrow the depths of what I feel is nothing compared to the joy the mother of the newborn is feeling or the sorrow of the life changing events with which  the individual from work is dealing.

And, Father, You permeate the mix – You are right there with us, rejoicing when we rejoice and there to console us in our loss. But what is our response to You? It is easy to give You praise in the midst of blessing… but can we do so in times of heartache? If we can, it would help us. Sometimes we are able to do so but only after a period of time.

There are times when, because of our own actions, we experience heartache. We did something we should not have done or we didn’t do something we should have done. Either way we must deal with the consequences. It may seem odd but praise is appropriate. We can praise because now that it is exposed we can deal with it – no more hiding, no more denying, no more avoiding it. Even if sin is involved we can praise because if we repent, You love us and will forgive – new slate, new start – move on.

We can praise in that everything we experience in life can be built upon. You use it all to mold and shape us into what we need to be – even the bad stuff can be used. It can make us more sensitive to the plight of others. It can strengthen our own fortitude so as not to fall again. It can be a catalyst to move us on to bigger and better things. It can help us see the importance of our relationship with You – more dependence on You and less on ourselves.

Lord, help me this day to “rejoice with those who rejoice” and “mourn with those who mourn.” Romans 12:15 Remind me to pray for them and help me to remember that in my walk with You, that You “must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30 Amen.

May 11th, Tues, 5:51 am