(Originally posted March 11, 2016)
Father, the next several days are going to be a challenge. We are so excited that Massey is home for a few days! But because we want to stay up and talk and do things together it makes getting up more of a challenge. My time with You is of the utmost importance to me, so I am determined to be here. Please help me to be wise in what I do when awake so that I will sleep well. Help me to be safe in my travels and to do my best at Kohl’s and in getting ready for worship. Thank You for Your active presence in my life.
I don’t know if the tacos from supper were a contributing factor, Lord, but I sure dreamed last night. I know many times You used dreams in the Bible to communicate messages. My dream was surely disturbing, and it may just be a wild, taco-induced thing in my brain, but I do want to use it as a means of staying true to You and the ones I love.
It’s disturbing in that it was sexual in nature. It was not sordid, and there are no graphic details to pass along. In my dream, I was not married, but even then, it was like I was looking at myself doing and thinking things and feeling mortified because I am married. For the most part, the dream was flirtatious in nature, and though I was tempted to pursue things best left alone, I did not yield. The only physical contact was when I rubbed the young woman’s back. It was in a group setting, and that’s all I did, but just that simple contact evoked “feelings.” Later, she was in the shower, and a clear but subtle invitation had been extended to me, but I saw nothing and did nothing, for I did not yield. I didn’t even go near her location.
Yuck! I don’t even like writing it down, but, Lord, I want it to be an anchor point in our relationship that will shore up another extremely important relationship in my life – my marriage!
The world is replete with sexual promiscuity. Our culture’s mentality is to meet our own needs regardless of how it impacts others. And no matter how much our society glamorizes it, it always affects others – often in hurtful, scarring ways.
I am wholly committed to Karen! Jesus, You are very clear on this topic.
“You have heard the commandment that says, “You must not commit adultery! But I say, anyone who even looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” Matthew 5:27-28
I pray daily for the strength and wisdom to abide by Your words, Lord. I do my best not to even linger on pictures of women I see. I strive to avert my eyes while interacting with the public when, on many occasions, low-cut tops and skin-tight bottoms want to lure me in.
Lord, help me! Only in You can I stand strong. I am totally dependent on You to get me through and want nothing else than to be utterly faithful to my wife. Amen – so be it!
(Mar 11th, 2016, Fri, 5:37 am)
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