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Silence

Father, I am grateful for our relationship. It is further down the road than we have ever been. It seems that for a very long time I was trapped in a never-ending cycle of struggle – defeating struggle. I can’t say things don’t come to mind of my past struggles but, Father, because of our relationship, I am able to stand firm. And when I am tempted, I call out to You…and You are there. Every. Single. Time. I realize that my journey is not over…but, Father, I praise You for my victory and for the promise and the hope that I can only find in You!

Matthew 27:11-14 (<<click to read the passage)

Reading this passage made me think of an old Spiritual, He Never Said a Mumbalin’ Word. There is a lot of history behind the song itself but His story is so, so much more important.

In reality, we are just at the beginning of many hours of what has become known as Christ’s passion – the beatings, the crown of thorns, the whipping, the nails driven into his hands and feet, the spear thrust in His side.

What would our response to any of these things be? Anger? Cursing? Crying out? Whatever they may be, our first response would probably not have…silence.

The Amplified Bible says,

13 “Then Pilate said to Him, “Do You not hear how many things they are testifying against You?” 14 But Jesus did not reply to him, not even to a single accusation, so that the governor was greatly astonished.

Jesus had spoken…many times and they had not listened. His words would make no difference to the outcome now…and He knew it. Now he lived out His love…it’s what He had come to do….

Lord, as we enter this season of celebrating Your birth may we never lose sight of why You came. Amen.

If you’d like to ponder this just a bit more, click on the link below. It is simple. It is beautiful. It tells His story…

Dec 6th, 2018, Thurs, 8:30 pm

I’m the One Who Needs Forgiven

Good morning, Father! I am so grateful that this has become a regular part of my schedule. I would ask that You would help me to never take it for granted but that I will always cherish our time together. And I think that’s what is foundational is that I cherish You! I have incalculable reasons why I should cherish You, I just need help realizing them. As Your Word directs, may I love You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength!

Colossians 3:13 (<<click here)

Forgiveness – Lord, over my lifetime we have worked through so many incidents where I have needed to forgive. Most I can’t even recall but a few of them were huge! Being asked to step down from an associate pastor’ position with no reason given, being unable to refinance our home because of an employer’s comments, being encouraged to leave the nest of security in another associate pastor’s position to became a Senior pastor when I felt I wasn’t ready. In those situations the hurt, the confusion, the anger – they consumed my every thought it seems. In the heat of the moment, I was unable – make that unwilling to forgive. Together, You helping me, I have been able to forgive. Thank You, Lord, that I no longer have to carry that baggage.

And looking back, I am the better for the experiences I have had. Sometimes things just don’t make sense – we just have to move on. Sometimes people are just apathetic to our situations, but we just must press on towards our goal – and sometimes we are the problem. Many times people love us and want what is best for us but we are blinded by fear and uncertainty. When the dust finally clears we find we are the ones who need to be forgiven.

Lord, thank You for taking the hard times, the extremely difficult times of my life and using them to make me stronger, to make me more sensitive to the needs and predicaments of others, to make me more and more appreciative of what You have done for me.

June 22nd, 2015, Mon, 5:58 am

Pedantic

As I look out the bay window this morning it is a gorgeous day, Father! Thank You for Your bountiful gift of beauty and life!

Matthew 15:1-9 (<<click the green)

In reading through a commentary on this particular passage, I saw the wonder pedantic used in reference to the Pharisees. I knew generally what it meant but I looked it up and dictionary.com defines it as overly concerned with minute details or formalisms, especially in teaching.

Boy does that aptly describe them!

Lord, here you are teaching thousands of people – that’s more than the Pharisees were doing! And miraculously you had even fed, from 5 loaves and 2 fishes, 5,000 men plus women and children! And the Pharisees couldn’t have even begun to do that! Yet after all that has been said and done on Your part, what do they do? Are they pouring forth Your praises? Are they bowing at Your feet? Are they seeking to learn from Your teachings? No…they are pedantic.

In my mind’s eye, I can see them in their flowing robes with their tassels swaying to and fro as they strolled in, noses in the air, disdaining the common folk around them and with great pomp and bravado asking,

“Why do your disciples disobey our age-old tradition? For they ignore our tradition of ceremonial hand washing before they eat.”

(Cue needle scratching across record audio clip) What!?!?! Here is the Messiah, the Son of God himself, touching people, changing lives, feeing multitudes from almost nothing and…and You have the audacity to whiningly complain about a tradition of hand washing? It’s not even a part of Mosaic law – it’s just something a bunch of over-studious scholars decided was important.

You don’t often see Jesus angry but when you do it is totally legitimate! He didn’t say it like I wrote it above but He sure didn’t hold back!

“And why do you, by your traditions, violate the direct commandments of God? … you cancel the word of God for the sake of your own tradition. You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you, for he wrote,
      ‘These people honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship is a farce,
for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God.’”

Lord Jesus, help us! This is not just a malady from Your time amongst us. How often do we get nit-picky (pedantic) about so many unimportant things while we sacrifice people with real issues and needs? Traditions are fine but not at the expense of what is really important. Fill us with Your love and wisdom, Lord. Amen.

May 17th, 2018, Thurs, 9:34 am

Anger Control

It is so comforting to know You are with me, Father. To awaken in the middle of the night and have that calm assurance when my mind is drawn to You. Even now, as yesterday’s time was consumed in preparation for Sunday’s worship, You gently woke me at this early hour so we could have ample time to be together. Thank You, Father, for Your love for me is undeniable.

Matthew 12:22-30 (<<click the green)

Lord, You were quick to expose the holes in the Pharisees’ accusation of Your power coming from Satan – “Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined…” Their allegation didn’t hold water but they wanted to get a reaction. They were stirring up discord by sowing doubt.

As my mind is processing this interaction, it is causing me to look at how I react to accusations in my life. You were justifiably angry, as verse 34 clearly shows, but You weren’t consumed by that anger. You were in control of Your reaction the entire time and You addressed the affront head on.

Me? How do I respond to accusations? Um…most of the time I struggle with control and being consumed is where I fall. I am more apt to lash out. Being angry is one thing but lashing out without thinking is where my fault tends to lie. It may not be evident to those around me but those closest to me feel the heat more often than they should, I’m ashamed to admit.

Lord, I confess my weakness. I would pray for Your assistance in addressing my failing. I may be genetically disposed to anger (if that’s even a possibility} but I can surely fight against it, asking Your Holy Spirit to give me correction and guidance. Many times if I would just stop…and think, my anger would be shut down or at least toned down so that I would respond in a way that would reflect Your influence upon my life. May it be so, Lord. Amen.

Apr 13th, 2018, Fri, 4:43 am

Reign It In!

Father, I’ve struggled the last couple of days and this morning I call out to You. I need Your strength and determination to keep me set apart for You. I admit I am weak. I am fallible. I have not “crashed and burned” but even playing with fire can lead to catastrophe. I am dependent upon You Father. Only in You can my striving for holiness be fulfilled. Praise Your Holy Name because of Your faithfulness, love, and patience!

1 Timothy 2:8 (<<click here)

Lord, if we are to have a growing relationship, prayer has to have a very prominent place. If I don’t listen to You, if I don’t speak with You, I am directionless. Trying to make progress on my spiritual journey without prayer, is like going on vacation out of state and not using a map or taking advantage of the benefits of a GPS or even stopping to ask for directions! I’d never see the things I wanted to see unless I stumbled over them by plain, dumb luck.

Lord, I need You. I am dependent upon You. Only You can put all the pieces together to form the masterpiece that You have in mind. But I have to listen and pay attention.

As Paul reminds me in this morning’s passage, I have to be careful not to obstruct my times of prayer as well. I am called to pray but I must be “free from anger and controversy.” My mind is already too easily distracted but add anger and controversy into the mix and absolutely no headway is made. Unfortunately, when something ticks me off, prayer most often is the last thing on my mind. Lord, first of all, please help me to curtail my anger. But when I do get angry help me to see Your face – to feel Your presence so that I can quickly rein it in. I would ask for You to guide me – not my anger. Amen.

September 2nd,  2015, Wed, 7:02 am