Father, I am so grateful for the time we had to spend with Massey. Thank You for providing each of us with time off for our regular routines so that we savor the moments together! Thank You for loving us the way You do so that we are able to love each other.
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I haven’t touched on it for quite a while but a little over three years ago I came to a point in my life where I knew it was time to go deep if you will. I cannot tell you when I accepted Christ as my Savior; I just know that it was at a young age. So I’ve had a relationship with Christ for probably close to 50 years. I had struggled with that relationship – not that Christ wasn’t extending the entirety of himself to me – but that I, even despite great efforts at times on my part, never seemed to get much below the surface.
I knew that He wanted an intimate relationship with me but though I had even served in many areas of full-time Christian ministry, in many ways I felt as if I barely knew Him. I knew of Him…but I really didn’t know him.
Back to three years ago…a surface relationship was no longer going to cut it! So I set out to specifically take time to spend one-on-one with Jesus. For me, it was early morning and in order to stay focused I journaled. I wrote an opening prayer to my Father and then read a passage of Scripture – at that point I was reading through the Epistles of the New Testament – and then I would ask the Lord to speak to me, to open my heart and mind to what would have me to glean from His Word…and He did.
It was hit and miss at the beginning but eventually, I went for days without missing a single opportunity to come together…and our relationship flourished!
After a time, my son, Massey, encouraged me to share my writings on a more public level and shortly thereafter More than Useless came together. I decided on that “label” because even with all I had taken part in through ministry, I felt unworthy…I felt on many levels that I was useless. But my time with Jesus changed it all!
Ephesians 1:4 came to mean a great deal to me.
Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes.
I am chosen! You are chosen! Before anything that we know even came into existence we were loved and chosen! As I said, my time with Jesus changed my whole mindset.
I recently came across a song with which many who enjoy Contemporary Christian music will be familiar. It is entitled, “You Say” and is sung by a young lady by the name of Lauren Daigle. In this song, she proclaims that regardless of how we may feel about ourselves, all that makes any real difference is what You say…for what You, Lord, have to say about is what really matters! Amen.
Aug 13th, 2018, Mon, 9:14 pm
